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[30 Sep 2005|04:39pm] |
i've been listening to bright eyes a lot lately.
more specifically, the lifted is the story blah blah blah cd.
you know what that means.
i'm both depressed and happy at the same time.
grrr. conor oberst, you will rue the day!
(... you will. you? will. you? will. you? will)
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[06 Sep 2005|08:25pm] |
33% of my video is on tape. right now.
that is beyond words for me. it's been three years of working on this video. now it's coming to life.
it's my video.
but you know what that means?
VIDEO PREMIERE PARTY AT MY HOUSE!!!!
if you're reading this, COME TO MY HOUSE!
when?
either this weekend or next, most likely next. so keep it open (probably a Saturday, but we'll see)
more info to come.
i should have a copy of the video by this weekend for sure, so i'll give people a week to come.
seriously though, i didn't make this for myself. i made it for all of you. give me some support, it's only $5.00, which is nothing. i've spent 3 years working on this video... don't be the only loser without Eye of the Beholder.
if you don't live by me, contact me and i'll send you the video. $6.00 (shipping and handling).
thanks.
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[25 Jul 2005|10:11pm] |
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[12 Mar 2005|05:14pm] |
from now on, my entries are going to be Friends Only.
sorry to anyone who reads this journal who isn't part of LJ.
not sorry to the people who caused me to do this.
bye, guys.
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[11 Mar 2005|04:00pm] |
oh yeah, i've also decided that my journal is going to be Friends Only as of... idk, maybe tomorrow.
so if anyone wants to keep reading this, you gotta be on my Friends list.
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[11 Mar 2005|03:57pm] |
today was actually not that bad.
some people were being assholes about it, but whatever. they were calling me Zack, and it's pretty hard to take that seriously. haha, what dumbasses.
but me and Lisa tried to have a last little hug, but it didn't really work out to well. next time we see each other we'll say our goodbyes as a couple and say hello to our friendship.
it really makes me happy that we're gonna be friends.
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[10 Mar 2005|09:41pm] |
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today was one of the longest days of my life.
i just want to go to bed. i just want a few hours of peace.
after me and Lisa broke up, i went into my bedroom and looked at our picture. the one she made me. it says "You're home is here/Within my heart" on it. and there's a black and white picture from New Years. she's laying on my chest and you can see in our eyes that we're just completely happy.
then i lost it. i cried and cried. i kept thinking about when she whispered "I love you" to me, the 2nd to last time we hung out. and when she said "I love you... I'll miss you!" right before she went to Louisville. that was the last time she said it to me.
what happened? why did things turn out like this?
it's so hard for me right now. i never got to kiss her or hold her one last time. i never got to say i love you and have her say it back one last time. i never got my last anything. it just ended after... after she started to stop loving me.
i might skip school tomorrow. i think i'll lose it if i see her.
she's my first love. my first kiss. she's the first person to say "I love you". now we're nothing.
the worst thing is, i don't know if i can still be friends with her. not yet. it hurts too much.
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[10 Mar 2005|04:52pm] |
nevermind about being nervous about hanging out with Lisa.
we just broke up.
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[10 Mar 2005|04:36pm] |
i'm really nervous about tomorrow.
i'm basically basing the rest of me and Lisa's relationship on what happens tomorrow.
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[10 Mar 2005|03:55pm] |
today was long.
the building by Emanuel is getting torn down, which made the first part of 2nd period pretty interesting.
Lisa left early so i didn't get to talk to her at all today... but she just got online so i'm gonna go ahead and start talking to her.
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[09 Mar 2005|07:31pm] |
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Maxxx: i've decided i'm anti same-sex abortion
Maxxx: you can do what you want in your free time, but these gay people are taking away MY RIGHT to get abortions
i feel good today. i've also noticed my past three entries have featured conversations.
today has gone good.
when i got home today, i played Halo 2 like... til dinner. i'm starting to get re-addicted to that game.
this kid Alan sent me a video of him ruling DDR at his house. it made me laugh, it was sweet.
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[09 Mar 2005|07:26pm] |
Maxxx: byebye lisa
Maxxx: <3
My Lisa: bye babe
My Lisa: <3
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
things are getting better between us! we hugged today and it felt right... at least i thought it did.
oh i hope i hope i hope things work out with us...
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[08 Mar 2005|09:24pm] |
Proclaim The Wrd did you like my cock in your throat?
NiKKi22489: yea, it tingled my voice box
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[08 Mar 2005|05:26pm] |
so much shit's been happening lately.
i am under the impression that the Emma, Nikki, and Ben cycle are gonna loop around again. i don't have a problem with Ben, i really don't, i just have a problem when Emma and Nikki ignore me because of him.
if that happens, i don't think i can just brush it off (again).
also, me and Lisa aren't doing so well. i'm currently fearing for the worst.
also, OGTs are next week, and i'm scared i'm gonna fail it.
blah blah blah.
as far as GOOD news go, mister Maxwell is starting to talk to more people at school. but of course, i might go to CTC next year, so i'll have to meet all new people... bummer.
i can't wait til spring break.
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[07 Mar 2005|05:16pm] |
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[07 Mar 2005|04:25pm] |
you ever spend three days looking for one song?
i think i found it now, but i don't really care if it's it or not.
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[07 Mar 2005|04:13pm] |
wow, this is the 5th time i made a post!
THANKS LJ!!
anyway, i'll just stick with "i didn't have a good day today." otherwise somebody'll get pissed off at me. which would make my day worse.
and i didn't have an awful day, i just don't feel much support from my friends at the moment. oh well, c'est la vei.
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[06 Mar 2005|02:03pm] |
i love sundays.
more importantly, i love finding out ON SUNDAY that i can't hang out with Lisa. and i love how everyone is goign to have fun at some shitty bands' concert.
seriously, sundays are my favorite day ever.
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